Last summer I went on a mission trip to Hyattsville, Maryland, and that week was so incredible for me. There were so many times during that week where I thought to myself, “Man, God you have me.” I want to explain the significance of that because that phrase alone means so much to me.
That phrase actually comes from the song “You Have Me” by Gungor. I must have listened to that song 100 times on the way up to Maryland, and as the week went on, God kept placing those lyrics in my heart.
Out on the farthest edge
There in the silence
You were there
Even though I was so traveling far away from home, I could look out the window and think to myself, “God, you have me.” Because even though I was nervous, God gave me excitement. Even though I was on my way to somewhere I had never been, God made me feel at home, and at peace. Even though I was in a place that seemed like it was out on the farthest edge, God was still there. In even the silent prayers, He was with me. God left me saying, “You have me.”
My faith was torn to shreds
Heart in the balance
But you were there
There were sometimes during that week where I was so nervous. I was constantly out of my comfort zone. My heart broke for the people living a life they didn’t want. Even when I started to doubt God’s ability to give the people of Hyattsville faith, that’s when He gave me faith. That’s when he showed up in little places like gas stations and church vans. When my heart was in a balance of emotions, he was there in the midst of every one of them. Again, God left me saying, “You have me.”
I thought I had seen the end
Everything broken
But you were there
I started to see God everywhere in Hyattsville. Even in the place that seemed so broken, He was there in a crooked smile or a contagious laugh. God showed me how we’re all broken in many ways, but He still moves in us, and he always forgives us. When I remembered how God uses me even though I’m broken, it made see the same in Hyattsville. Hyattsville may have been a little broken, but we all are. Brokenness doesn’t push God away, it only brings Him closer. In the midst of our brokenness, God shows up and He makes us new. And even though I was a broken person in a broken city, God still left me saying, “You have me.” Slowly but surely, He was making the brokenness in me and around me beautiful.
Always faithful
Always good
You still have me
You still have my heart
Our God is so faithful, and so good. After spending a week in Hyattsville, Maryland, I believed that more than ever before. I left a piece of my heart with the people Hyattsville that week, but what God taught me there has stayed with me ever since. That week God had me, and he has had me ever since. After that week, I knew God will always have me. There’s absolutely nothing that compares to the love of God, and that love will always have me. God, you have me completely.
You have me
You have me
You have my heart completely
Ellie Proctor 